Wait! I get it. There are steps to this...

At first I thought there were three but no, any fool could sabotage that. So splitting them up even further:

1. Find a pen that works.
2. Fill out the form. Don't just think about it. Fill it out.
3. Find an envelope that sticks.
4. Put the form in the envelope.
5. Find a stamp.
6. Send it off.
7. Panic about the money.
8. Wait and see what happens next.

See - not so hard hey? Now I've managed my head, I can get on and do it. Tomorrow.

Along with getting rid of the coach guy - writing this has got to be better than that and calling up about the party fairy is missing.

Shall I or shan't I?

So the question is: should I do it? Pick up the pen. Fill out the form and send it in. Go for the interview. See how it goes.

I am a past mistress at procrastination. The chunter inside my head goes: "I'm tired. I don't feel like it. Maybe I should decide tomorrow."

I just have to remember that my hands are still small. They are growing. Baby hands. Grasping one thing at a time.