Dad's hands

Old Hand Crossword
Originally uploaded by adolgov.

Walking today and suddenly I had a thought. Dad will never have those papery old hands that Grandpy had. He will never have old hands. Instead of this being a happy thought - I really loved dad's hands - the weight behind it nearly knocked me over. Instant tears. The cuckoo trail suddenly became a green, misty blur. I think, 7 months down the line, this is grief. It's not there all the time, hurting every minute. It just comes out of the blue, every now and then. And it's strange but I like it. Fiercely. I like the fact that it makes me cry that my father will never have papery hands.